These are what I find to be the most majestic feelings.. let’s start with numero uno, which I think most people can agree with me on.

1. Orgasm

2. Being in awe of something very profound (love, amazing scenery, insight)

3. Giving

4. Taking a gianormous dump, after much agonizing pushes

5. The “runner’s high”or after any sort of vigorous exercise

6. Digging the ears.. whoaaaa orgasmic

7. Laughing until it hurts

8. Finding out there’s somebody you can really connect with

9. After finishing a good book

10. After finishing a really good movie

11. Scratching an itchy place really hard

12. Finding free money or money that’s yours but you never knew you had

13. Accomplishing a goal/ feeling proud of yourself

Yeah, I think that’s all I can come up with now, the list is kind of jumbled up though, and I’m too lazy to re-number. It’s funny and slightly disturbing how I thought of this idea as a topic. Last night, before hopping into bed, I took a huge crap.. yeah. I was constipated so badly that I hadn’t gone in three days! I could feel it crowning, but it wouldn’t come out. I pushed until my veins were popping out… and ffter it was all done with, I breathed a sigh of relief and I thought to myself, my goodness that felt almost better than sex.

I’ve got roughly about another month before the hell that is school begins, and so before that, there are a couple things I’d like to have done that will make my holiday well spent. The first month was pretty much being a bum, and now I’m all hyped, I want to go out and do things! I feel pumped.

1. Go to Bali with bf for Christmas!

2. Go to the waterfalls with friends

3. Throw a smashing house party

4. Hike Penang Hill with friends

5. Play tennis or badminton with a shitload of people, and have a tournament

6. Get a giant tarp and make a slip n slide.. like ole times in Gr.6

7.Cardio my way down to 50 kg, tone it up, see my effing abs again

8.Get the dog his shots

9.Hang out with Kristi and Jessica! Go to Blue reef to bug Swen

10. Go out to Red Box with Xiao Qian and Erin

11. Roadtrip to KL with bf and friends

…. and that’s about it for now. I want to actually get these things done. Let’s see how it goes.

Last night, as we sat on the ledges to a steep drop that would’ve ultimately lead to our untimely death had we had fallen, and chatted about life as we know it, there was a moment when a question was raised – it struck a discordance in me, like a beautiful violin all of a sudden playing the wrong note. “Have you ever felt like you wanted to feel like you used to, back then, not now?”
Well, as much as I would like to concur and say that I am still that way, I’d be lying to myself. Ultimately, we all grow up, it’s inevitable, and with this wisdom we also lose ‘that’ feeling, the innocence of a child when everywhere and anything is fun and is filled with life luster. I always reminisce the young days, they were filled with so much wonder and pity pleasures, like riding out bikes to the gas station to fill up on slurpees and 5cent candies. You know I do believe I could has a taste of that again, if I just did the same things as I used to, but then again the feeling wouldn’t be the same y’know? Despite doing the same activity, your dawned with all the worries of the world now, and it’s hard to lose sight of that. However, there are some things that keep us alive and make us feel young, that’s the arcade for me, or goofing around, it’s brings back a jovial time, back when…

I wish I could stay a kid forever, but like with the mind I have now.

Wow how do I despise passionately how some people have the audacity to lie and make threats. It eludes me how seriously some just fictitiously create fantasies of themselves, and with all that false prestige, are still able to put other people down. Have they no shame? When I see injustice, I make it my self proclaimed mission to speak out and put to action.

From what I’ve experienced in Penang, people are cowards. They hide behind their facades, and try not to veer away from how others perceive them. That, or they hide behind a parade of people – and get lost.

I want to snap a persons neck, and break faces.
It’s time to take a step back and re-evaluate my situation and my peer groups. I shouldn’t have to resist the urge of wanting to slap a persons face all the time. I miss my friends in Canada, and my other Penang besties who I completely and utterly yearn for. I feel like having another Singapore trip (2007) like that time with Mia and Anna.